Trauma

I grew up in a pretty messed up family. We’re indigenous so my parents and grand parents went through residential school, I went through boarding school in high school, everyone including me was an alcoholic, people did drugs, messed up shit since before I was born … but somehow I and my family survived through it all.

But a common thing with me and my siblings was to fall asleep listening to music. Pop songs, rock songs, whatever and I never understood it for a long time … it was just comforting. Later on after my journey into recovery from alcoholism, I learned it was just a coping mechanism for us … a way to just distract ourselves to stop us from thinking about sad, depressing, frightening, disturbing or traumatic things.