Legends say that the civilization ended during the cold war after the cuban missile crisis went hot, what you are experiencing is merely a simulation.

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Cake day: November 7th, 2024

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  • Trigger warning: Topic of Suicide

    When I was a kid, my mom would read the news about some famous people who killed themselves, or some random college kid killing themselves, and she told me those stories and ask me what I thought of it. I thought they were stupid for killing themselves, because nothing could possibly be worse than death, I thought, childhood me chouldn’t understand the thought of suicide.

    Then I slowly became depressed and I became so bored of life and I became a suicidal person that younger me would’ve looked at me and think it’s stupid.

    Well I did not really did a serious attempt, but I did like very reckless things like I once took an entire month supply of antidepressants desparately wanting to feel better, I did this like I think 5 times. I also took like 15 sleeping pills at a time for like serveral times within a few months. I even took like like 30 then my body just couldnt handle it and I threw up. I also ignored health advice like getting vaccinated for covid (don’t judge, my head wasn’t even in the right place to think clearly) even tho I am usually pro vaccine, I just decided I wanted to increase my odds of dying. Well I didn’t die, which kinda sucks. I also don’t really care about my weight and just eat whatever I felt like. I’m pre diabetic, might get diabetes. I might have stomach issues with GERD or whatever but I dont even care.

    I’m not brave enough to end it immediately, so I’m just slowly killing my self.

    Oh yea dont even get me started on how my depression got me into a fight in high school that ended up with me detained for a few hours at the police station. I didn’t start the fight but whatever. F the police.

    My life is just a downward spiral, recent election results is pushing me towards the edge. Never forsaw this shitty future.













  • Switzerland.

    I like to witness what direct democracy looks like.

    Although, I’m not sure if they like an Asian immigrant.

    Oh and learning four languages is a big challenge, lets hope in this hypothetical I get a language translator brain implant. 😅

    I managed to learn english when I arrived in the US around age 8-10, now in early 20s, I aint gonna be able to learn 4 languages, I barely passed spanish class.



  • My sympathy for Ukraine says they should.

    My survival instincts as an American would say they shouldn’t because then Russia get big mad and nuke us. I don’t enjoy radiation, so my survival brain is saying they shouldn’t.

    But my suicidal brain after seeing the result of the US presidential election says: Fuck it, let them do whatever, hell we can even gift some to them. Climate is fucked anyways. Lets pretend this is a sandbox game and see what happens. What’s the worst that can happen, die? Hehe I’ve been dying inside and November 5 just cut off my life support.

    So it depends which alter ego you ask. Ye know, like the angel and demon on your shoulders.

    Edit: holy shit its 2AM and I’m wasting time on Lemmy. that just shows how dead on the inside i am… cant sleep, fucking election anxiety.