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It taught me how much i wasted my youth by being a pussy and not improving my skills
My curiosity got the better of me and I watched a video of a drug cartel beheading three people. Two with a chainsaw, one with a knife. It was horrific and not quick.
If you’re ever tempted to watch something like that, do not do it. It’s not worth it. It’s been years and I still have random intrusive thoughts about it and it makes me physically ill.
Yeah, as a teenager I got curious and was on rotten.com, damn that website was dark. Some of the things I saw are still with me, I won’t describe them because it would be way too graphic.
Basically what you said - do not do it there is nothing to be found except suffering.
I still have random intrusive thoughts about it and it makes me physically ill.
That’s a good thing in my book, the fact that that stuff still makes me feel bad is proof of my empathy and humanity, if you know what I mean? Like it didn’t desensitize me.
Edit: after I wrote the comment I noticed that the website got hyperlinked - don’t bother, thank God that site is offline now
I used to watch this stuff. It didn’t really bother me. Then my childish curiosity waned and I didn’t seek it out anymore. Then I saw a video randomly and I was fucking so disturbed and I thought what is wrong with me that I wanted to see that.
I guess I developed empathy at some point? I’ve seen some of the videos from Ukraine and they make me sick.
My curiosity got the better of me and I watched a video of a drug cartel beheading three people. Two with a chainsaw, one with a knife. It was horrific and not quick.
If you’re ever tempted to watch something like that, do not do it. It’s not worth it. It’s been years and I still have random intrusive thoughts about it and it makes me physically ill.
Yeah, as a teenager I got curious and was on rotten.com, damn that website was dark. Some of the things I saw are still with me, I won’t describe them because it would be way too graphic. Basically what you said - do not do it there is nothing to be found except suffering.
That’s a good thing in my book, the fact that that stuff still makes me feel bad is proof of my empathy and humanity, if you know what I mean? Like it didn’t desensitize me.
Edit: after I wrote the comment I noticed that the website got hyperlinked - don’t bother, thank God that site is offline now
I used to watch this stuff. It didn’t really bother me. Then my childish curiosity waned and I didn’t seek it out anymore. Then I saw a video randomly and I was fucking so disturbed and I thought what is wrong with me that I wanted to see that.
I guess I developed empathy at some point? I’ve seen some of the videos from Ukraine and they make me sick.
Sounds closer to ptsd than intrusive thoughts tbh
Originally ptsd was diagnosed to military AND first responders, first responders because they saw some shit.
Like you did
Funkytown
PTSD is real deal esp if unprepared
We should deff be sending teenagers into foreign countries to harass local population with night raids… Nothing can go wrong