Honk

It’s not quite “naughty” in the traditional sense, but something kind of romantic, new, and outside of my comfort zone: I think I’ve developed a crush on someone!

This is the first time I’ve felt like this towards another person in about 5 years. I’ve been going to weekly therapy for about 2 years now, and rotating a load of medications, but this is the first time I’ve “allowed” myself to start falling in love again.

Unfortunately, my subconscious was quite perturbed and overwhelmed by these feelings such that I’ve been terribly depressed for most of the week. My instincts have been trained to expect nothing but rejection and false promises when I develop a crush. Two steps forward, one step back.

I ate an entire box of 24 chocolate chip cookies in one night. Meant to have them as a treat for the whole week, but lost my self control. Never done anything like that before 😳